That word. 

J e a l  o u s l y 

Yea that word, everyone knows it and it seem everyone around me try's to act like there not jealous. When in actual fact they are and you know what? That's okay, to be jealous of someone or something it's okay. We're only human.

As long as you don't let that jealously take over and make you a bitter person, as in wanting to make that person jealous of you, you know? That never ending battle of who's better but anyways getting back to the point. To be jealous of something doesn't make you a bad person it shows that you have emotions. 

BUT.

Guess what is wrong, getting back to my earlier point. Trying to make someone else jealous of you or of someone else. I am currently experiencing this. Its is down right awful. I am trying so hard not to be jealous of this person but it seems like no matter how hard I try or do something to better myself, as in making myself feel a little better but completing a different task. It's never enough, this person still seem to make me jealous of this other person. 

Its unfair and honestly it makes me feel ever so small..

& I'm 5ft2! ;) 

Okay my little joke not so great, I tried! Leave me be, I'm only small. ;) < See what I did there. 

Back to the point. I can't quite understand why a person would want to make another person feel this way I do, your all properly thinking, ''cause there jealous'' Trust me. It's not that. 

Or I would have done what I could along time ago.

Anyways, I'll keep you all updated on this situation. 

Ig you have any advice please let me know in the comment's.

It would GREATLY appreciated.    

Signing off.